Wasted days & wasted nights.

Isn't that a song?

Come 8:00 or 9:00 p.m. (depending) nightly, I'm so ready to sit down at my computer & have some quiet time. I have realized lately that I really love communicating, browsing, surfing, blah, blah, blah via the internet. When I think about having computer time so I can visit with some friends, literally, it makes me happy. And I love that.

But my days are just so un/disorganized. I'm so organized, I'm unorganized. Yes, it is totally possible. Yesterday, it rained all day. Oh how I love the rain! Since it was Saturday & my husband was home, I did nothing all day long. Nothing. There aren't many days I do nothing. My nothing days typically consist of doing some laundry, refereeing & making some meals, at the very least. Not yesterday. I ran out of Borax & for some reason, I think I can no longer do my laundry without Borax. So I did none. Hubby handled the rest. Honest to pete, I stayed in bed almost all day, watching movies with little beings. Every now & then I'd surface, check Twitter & Facebook, read at MWoP (sigh - bidding 'farewell' - that was one big flop) & well, that was about it. I figured one complete day of waste wouldn't kill me.

Today I rise, knowing I have so many groceries to get. This morning I spent 2 hours at Walmart. I'm tired of always having to run to the store, so now I buy two of popular drinks/foods so I don't have to continue so many store runs. Anyway, I came home, we unloaded & put away, I began washing sheets, ate lunch & I had a whole list of cleaning I wanted to accomplish. Clothes got washed now that I have Borax, but do you want to know what I got cleaned? Nothing. Not one thing.

I've been staying up way too late (incredibly ironic yet stupid, since I'm the one promising myself I'll get to bed earlier), so I thought I needed a little nap today. Especially considering all the work I did yesterday (cough, cough). So I took a nap, then showered while hubby took the kids outside for a bit, then fixed some dinner & then I wanted to run quickly to Goodwill(s) in hopes of picking up some work out videos. Dinner was done & my youngest son has a tooth that needs to come out - so we spend again another hour (did last night, too) trying to pull that sucker out (& again, no luck) - by now it's too late for Goodwill(s) run, beds need to be made & everyone needs a shower.

And at 8:00ish tonight I sat down. And feel like a total failure for not only wasting an entire day yesterday, but not accomplishing anything (except for groceries & some laundry) worthwhile today. I deeply crave & desire a clean, organized, beautiful home (1. because it looks nice & 2. because it actually calms my demeanor) & I rarely accomplish that. I get so angry & so frustrated with myself & I'm just so darn irritated!

Love having this place to just release my frustration. And thankful, yet again, for tomorrows. ♥

Moments.

RoC Retinol Correxion Deep Wrinkle Moisturizer. Part II.

If you follow me on Twitter and/or Facebook, you know I've been concerned about what the Retinol in this product has done to my face. I.e. Certain areas are bright red (new skin?), other areas are peeling, my face is splotchy & SO dry. I know I started using this product on 2.3 & I think I used it for about a week, give or take, before I stopped using it. I switched back to my Physicians Formula in hopes of salvaging my skin.

Quite a few girls I've spoke with told me what I experienced with this product was normal. Retinol removes the old skin/wrinkles, allowing new skin to blossom. After a few weeks of using the product, supposedly the symptoms dissipate & one is left with healthy, new skin.

I did some research & I do believe that is accurate information (not that I at all doubted the information the girls relayed to me). As I've always heard, Retinol (Vitamin A) is the number one antidote, number one "wrinkle-fighting ingredient", for aging skin. After further research, I learned about Retinoid Dermatitis - a horrible, nasty reaction to Retinol. Thankfully, I most definitely did not develop that. Which leads me to believe my splotchy skin was/is normal. Even on the back of the tube it states to stop using the product if irritation "develops & lasts". I didn't use it long enough, I don't think, to know if the symptoms last long. Interesting enough, the tube also states to "apply generously". I think I really took that advice to heart. Ha! Pretty confident I was applying too much.

Evidently, my face feels like leather because Retinol is extremely drying. I'm not sure how to combat that - should I apply a different moisturizer on top of it (like Physicians Formula, which I love) or, should I use Physicians Formula during the day & use the RoC Deep Wrinkle Night Cream (or the Eye Cream) at night. I may have to do some more research to determine my answer. Also in question is exactly how much Retinol this Deep Wrinkle Moisturizer contains. The amount is not stated on the tube (which I read is a red flag - if the amount is not stated, then it probably doesn't contain enough). I read that a product needs to contain "0.2 - 0.6%" strength Retinol in order to be effective. That said, even though I don't know exactly how much it contains, I certainly know it's in there due to my symptoms.

All that said, today, because I am a glutton for punishment, I started using this product again. After all this, I really hope I see some positive results! I will say that out of all the reviews I read, all of them stated they saw noticeable improvements. And that is encouraging!

I may be approaching age 45, but I'm going kicking the entire way. Retinol, here I come. Again. Ü

Valentine decor!

I didn't even break a sweat.

Well, there it is. No stains.

Do you read resolved2worship? In her most recent post, she made this statement:

"Seriously, how long do you wait to live? And does it really matter? Truly? So what if it gets something on it. YOU LIVED!

Do you get to the end of your life and say, "Well, there it is. No stains."


Amen sister, amen! LOVE this! I now totally focus on this direction for our lives & I strive for it every single day. I love it! I just wish I would have realized this concept of a blessing years ago! So much time & energy wasted on stupid stuff. Life is short & the stupid stuff isn't worth, & never has been worth, the time & recognition it receives.

I know I sound like a broken record but today is the day to start living! ♥

OneWord2012. TRUE.

Most importantly - to be true to myself.

To be proud of who I am - God created me!

To be honesty, always, with myself.

To truly find myself again, as a person.

To true, to be real, to be authentic.

To truly love & have compassionate.

To truly not worry about what other think.

To be true to my children, always.

To be true in regards to my health - changes need to be implemented.

To be true to life itself.

True.

RoC Retinol Correxion Deep Wrinkle Moisturizer.

I've used RoC before, but it's been a while & I can't remember why I quit using it. So, I thought I'd try it again, mainly because it contains Retinol. I also like that it contains SPF 30. I abused my skin so severely when I was younger, I now try diligently to take good care of my skin care. To be aware. The price is fair, too - it's about $20 for 1 ounce. In addition, I'm debating purchasing the eye cream to see if I really notice an improvement.



After I use it for a while, I'll do a review & let you know if I like it! :)