My extensive testing turned into further extensive testing. I was 'there' for hours. The bottom line is I know no more now than I did then (well, sort of I do, but won't go into details). Suffice to say, surgery is in my immediate future.
I don't want to go into details right now. For 2 reasons:
1.) I'm still trying to absorb all of this & I'm waiting for my dr. to phone me after she speaks with the specialist.
2.) There are too many who read my blog (think 'Bentley's school') who are so not welcome into this personal journey I am fixing to embark on regarding my health & life.
I am so distraught on so many levels. I have too much right now on my plate. My dad is in jail. And it's much, much more complicated than that. I have options to weigh regarding my health & I don't know where to start. I need surgery & I have 4 children. That one is self-explanatory. Just too much.
So I've decided to step back from my blog. Postings will be more sporadic until I clear my mind. And should I want to vent/discuss on here (remember I have no one to talk to in person) I absolutely refuse to after what happened w/ Bentley's injury. Private blog for discussing/releasing frustration regarding my health? Make this one private again so I can keep everything in one spot? Keep all 'this' bottled inside? Too many I don't knows. And right now I have not one single answer.
I do have peace & a certain calmness that all will be fine. This won't get me down 'cause it takes a lot to pull me down. I'm strong as strong can be - just confused, frustrated & angry at the moment. I just need to think.
If you can spare an extra prayer for me, I would really appreciate it. And for my family too. They will be just as affected as I will be. I'm not so concerned about myself as I am for my children. Please keep them in your prayers.
I'll be around. And thanks so very much for caring.
8 comments:
I will pray for you and the kids Melissa. If you ever want to "talk" you know how to get in touch with me.
wow...i'm sure you are overwhelmed. just know that we bloggers are thinking of you and keeping you and your precious family in our prayers!
update us when you feel like you can!
I am so sorry you are facing all of this Melissa. But you aren't alone...you have several online friends...and while we aren't there in person...we are there for you. {{{HUGS}}}I will gladly give you my # to call anytime.
Anita
Melissa....I understand the surgery and kids thing. I am nervous about mine next week. Please know you can call me. I can give you my number via email if you would like. Don't keep it all bottled up.
Love you girl
Katie
Prayers are coming your way! I have had 3 surgeries since April, so I feel for you. You can always vent privately to me on facebook messaging if you like! Let me know if you need anything!
Hang in there, girlie! I've known you long enough to know nothing can keep you down for long.Thinking of you..
Your certainly in my prayers. Whatever the situation, no matter the circumstances, no that your a child of God. Precious.I pray that you find a way to praise him in this storm in your season and I pray that you find comfort and peace in his arms! I am glad to have met you in blog world and you and your babies will always remain in my immediate thoughts! Just know that because of your beautiful blog you have made many dear friends who support you! I will send you my information so that we can keep in touch no matter what you decide to do! God BLESS YOU!
praying....
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